Monday, August 31, 2009

I have a feeling

I think things are going to change soon. I can feel it. Either that or I'm wanting change so bad that I am making myself feel like change is coming soon. Tomorrow I go to register (again) for classes. I'm excited, yet I don't want the summer to end like this. I say "like this", like I had a bad summer.

Despite the illness of my grandmother this summer has been pretty disaster free and kinda on the boring side. I mean even the trip back to Ohio was really good. I did get to be around my relatives which I hardly ever get to see and I got some work done.

Spiritually it was a weird summer. There were some good highs, but for the most part I stayed away from church. Like others, I've been turned off by church completely. Having worked in one for 4 years I know all the ins and outs, I know the secret meetings, the back fighting, the ignorance. I understand why a non Christian would stay away from church. Because it's exactly why I'm not going. I did listen to Calvary on the radio today and I did feel left out, I do like going to Calvary but the more I go, the more I feel like getting involved. Which I feel for me is not something I want to undertake at this moment. Like I said, church has left a bitter taste in my mouth and until I get over that I don't want to be a part of it. In the future I would still like to work with youth and children because I have a passion for that. It's just a shame that a group of people can stifle that.

2 Timothy 4:2
Preach the word! Be ready in season and out of season...

I hope I'm ready     

Thursday, August 20, 2009

I feel

I feel like that I'm not really ready for this semester as much as I would like to be. Although I'm not really sure how ready one can be. I am looking forward to doing my internship as well as all the TESOL classes I will be taking. In that respect I hope it to be a great start. I am rather disappointed that the school newspaper will not have an editor...thus putting an end to the paper, unless we can find someone. I was offered to do it twice but there is no way that I am going to have time. I also feel that, my writing skills have increased but not to the point of being an editor. I like my little piece of the world, my two articles are plenty to keep me happy. But, now it seems that desire will have to be put on hold till we have an editor.

So I spent the past week in Ohio. I got a chance to visit with my grandmother, as well as fortify my hatred for hospital.

Check out this song, Owl City is my new fav

That's all for now kids

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Something new

So I downloaded a new plug-in for Firefox. It allows me to updated my blog from any site as well as post links really easy. I'll see how well I like it and decide if I'm going to stick with it. Also, I'll be updating soon about my trip to ohio and add some pics and whatnot. :)

Recommended music download - Owl City

Tuesday, August 11, 2009


Sometimes I am lost on the open water
Sometimes I am thrown by the wind and the waves
Sometimes I'm swimming in the deep end
Can I stay Afloat, Stay Afloat

In the rain, there is a storm, barely breathing as I paddle...
I am sinking- Does it matter?
In my final breath, my only hope , you come to save me...

Friday, August 7, 2009

August 6th....64 years ago

This is a video I found interviewing a survivor of the attack on Hiroshima, it's in Japanese but has subtitles so if you can read enjoy. I think it's worth the watch.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

...then my car died

It turns out that Wednesday is going to suck. My car broke's the crankshaft timing sensor is shot. Luckily they (the car dealership) dropped me off and my parents are coming to take me to work and pick me up...I feel like I'm 15 all over again. But it's all good, supposedly my car will be ready tomorrow and then I should be good.

In other news a blog that I follow got their youtube account suspended so the video is my previous blog no longer exists. Sorry :)

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I want you to think about something...

Sometimes I come across things on the internet that scare even me. Things that I watch and go...hmm someone is going to get arrested for that. The video below is one such thing. I feel that certain people should 1. not be allowed to have kids because obviously these kid's parents are dumber than that fake cow (in the video). and 2. "Yogi" should not be allowed within 200 yards of an elementary school...or a toys r us!

This video just screams "I need to notify you when you move into my neighborhood"

Monday, August 3, 2009


The title is take from the July 31'st reading of My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers. As is this quote:

"Not only must our relationship to God be right, but the external expression of that relationship must be right. Ultimately God will let nothing escape, every detail is under His scrutiny. In numberless ways God will bring us back to the same point over and over again. He never tires of bringing us to the one point until we learn the lesson, because He is producing the finished product."

Sometimes we wonder, "How long do I have to go through this," or "Why is this happening again?" In all reality God is teaching us, and sometimes we don't always learn from the first time. We need to be honest with ourselves. Are we destined to repeat our mistakes or are we going to learn from them and move on? I fear that if we don't learn, we will be in a continual state of disillusionment thinking that we are over certain problems when we are really just ignoring them.

How long will we fight the change? How long will we continue our futures to go unchanged? Are you destined to make the same mistakes over and over or are you going to really change?

"Let your endurance be a finished product, so that you may be finished and complete, with never a defect." James 1:4